(8) Agnus Dei, Qui Tollis peccata Mundii ... (8) This song marked me in my first year of college and now I have the pleasure of that resonates in my head being the 3:29 a.m. on Thursday, July 28 ... And I will as I write these lines are never more ... One of the deepest truths I can say, picking up something I've heard both also
I thought when I'm with others, or within of a group ... is that I have never belonged to one. I can not find the socket that can make someone like me in so great diversity of this odious humanity ... independent of whatever, what I like, what you want or dream, always the same result ... reached the stage that I feel and I say if you really belong to this ... also where people includes me, I can not be joining ... I can not, is and always has been a barrier between I and the people, everywhere and in all the groups I've been ... always giving some advice (if you do not go ordering one yet) or listening to or ordered something your life ... I'm not complaining, but always make it clear that ... I'm not part of any social group, even one that as I ... I read about people in the past that strangely keep a sense of affection to all persons who were part of his life and is like "ahh how nice" ... but it is a simple and mean false to reality itself. I could not lie and just said ... "Well ... years, I have nothing more to say ." What could I say? "Oh yes, also the strange ... people who contributed their bit to crap life? No. .. could not be as sarcastic as less liar ..." Also I keep in my heart ... "Just a disgusting . I've been through many groups of people, I spent a few years of life and thought as if I have lived for thousands of decades ... now simply I'm stuck somewhere in this vast, dark ocean of inadequacy and inconsistency, which unfortunately also participated ... Everything looks so fake ... and sincere expressions of affection that I see in some people ... vanish and it hurts ... "See, the bread is toasted and you can put tuna ... Ouch! Burn I do what I always wanted to do ... catch my bags and go ... far, far, far away and goodbye People ... reality goodbye ... Am I running from? Am I a coward? deep
All want that, but just plug the inevitable with the hope of being loved ... The only people I can put your hands into the fire, THE ONLY AND ONLY THOSE PEOPLE, and say that I want ... is my mother, my father and my brothers. Be.
If something happens, I will suffer ...
ia S other something happens, my condolences and would ... "Cruel? No. .. everybody does ... Right? Finally, sleep wears me out, but one thing never ... NEVER find and as I have always said, and the other fully agrees with me is that I will never love ... I just love, how could love someone ... IS STUPID! Unlikely SENSELESS mockery should catch my old habits and practice them again ... at least my back has improved ... Well other, you have won ... come to claim your prize. Because things always take the course must have had.
PD: Simply, people are bored while I took my baby ... rather contradictory. And that ... sucks.
I Sometimes there are moments where everything falls and is destroyed, or when everything becomes blurred and small rays of sunshine are hidden, or when the moon-shaped lid to the imposing majestic Sun All ... especially when going from light to dark gray and white to gray to black, or pure and impure and false sincere ... My heart does not like playing hide and seek, does not like playing a loser and no one likes to be hurt ... My thought and do not let up in some situations and her courage by my soul to escape and disappear from this life. Do not want to die, but do not want to feel something of what humans call "love" and live with it. Right now, I want nothing .. Currently ... would disappear and that "the other" take my soul finally and I fail to be aware of everything. Currently ... I would like the longer you keep quiet, have a coffee, listening to classical music and live alone ... away from everything and everyone. And when achieve all this, what will I do? Simple ... Die.
The other has spoken.
Again ... You again ... III In my house ... something had changed in recent times ... O: The succeeded. F: Will do, damned? "Cried O: I'm finally getting to make your life a misery ... You know you deserve it, right? F: Y. .. y. .. and why ... according to you? - The tears fell one after another. O: Make an inventory of what you have in life ... you know nothing, were and are a bad friend, a bad teammate, you have no intelligence or patience, you have no merit and skills, are a failure and everything is as hypocritical as your own smile ... all happiness is false and your own sense of living is something that can not stand ... F: Shut up ... this is false, ALL SAY WHAT IS WRONG! O: Ja ... ja ... JAJ ... JAJAJAJAJAJAAJ ... believing is false, but know it's true ... so no one other than your parents and your family, you said I love you and hope for you and you are not able to feel the love that maybe other people have tried to give you ... You know if you disappear the only ones who will be there are your parents and siblings, but your friends will give them the same as your "Greek Love"-sarcasm or cares ... more over ... is ... F: DO NOT SAY HIS NAME ... I know that ... O: Finally, spend the time and will only ... 're born alone and die as a natural law as such ... and I have started ... until she was just angry with you ... F: What did you ... what did you say?! O: You know the drill ... self-centered behavior and show what you feel in the background ... pain and lack of ego, right?. She supports you and with you and you do not trust her ... F: I trust her ... much, but do not want ... O: You do not want ... hurt, damage, show how weak and stupid you are? You're an idiot and she holds out his hand and reject ... Finally ... left of your life ... Do you see that it is easy as people go? F: ... O: And that will happen ... and if everything happens before spring and you'll stay here ... 'll stay just as it was meant to be ... While the other voice laughed with triumph and every day their thoughts and actions happen to be part of my current existence ... I sink in sorrow and in fear of losing people who have given me the opportunity to grow and learn from them, like you, my princess, sly
